Making my way in this strange new place...

Time to go

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 00:40:22 GMT

Well, I'm flying out tomorrow morning for NY, so see you all when I get back!

Tuesday, Tuesday, Tuesday!

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 16:06:15 GMT

I will be flying to NY. I'm gettin' in at around 7pm. Probably give some people a call late that night when I get settled in or early Wednesday.

Cheers!

Heh cute..

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 02:57:17 GMT

01. The age you will be on your next birthday.

02. A place to which you'd like to travel.

03. Your favorite place.

04. Your favorite object.

05. Your favorite food.

06. Your favorite animal.
THAT'S what came up first when typing in "kitten"?!

07. Your favorite color.

WANT

08. The town in which you were born.

Dude, that's my college...

09. The town in which you live.

10. The name of a past pet.

11. The first name of a past love.

THERE IS NO NUMBER 12.
THERE IS ALSO NO NUMBER 13

14. Your first name.

15. Your middle name.

16. Your last name.

17. A bad habit of yours.

18. Your first job.

lolwut

19. Your grandmother's name.

20. Your major in college.

Langley stories

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 05:30:35 GMT

For Jen and anyone who wants a fantastic read:

Part 1:
http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2288039230&sid=1

Part 1 1/2:
http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2366728992&sid=1

Part 2:
http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2366734656&sid=1

Part 3:
http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2518017266&sid=1

Part 4:
http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2647309487&sid=1

New story arch:
Part 1:
http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2765930941&sid=1

So, life... (Part 2)

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 14:11:19 GMT

So, I think it's the end of the road.
Yesterday morning, Jer got pulled over for ticketed for not having insurance that we cannot afford.
The fine? Minimum of $980.
Guess what we don't have?
Guess what happens if we don't have it?

So I'm going to be moving back to NY within the next couple weeks. I don't know how long I'll be there with my one-way ticket, but I pray to anyone that'll listen that it'll only be temporary. In the mean time, in NY, I'll be working my ass off trying to get us out of debt here and keep Jer from going to jail.

This also means calling in favors I'd rather not to get by before I can start getting money in.

I cried when I was talking to my mom on the phone last night. I can count the number of times I've cried in front of her on one hand. This makes me a bit nervous as to my state of mind when I made the decision, though at the time, the decision was just to go there and not come back.

So why would I be going back to NY to get a job when I'm in AZ right now?
Well, a few reasons. One being that... I need to step away from the situation a little to get perspective on a few things. Two being that where I live, there isn't a job for me. Three, I know I can get something fast in NY, since I know so many people. Four, I'll sound like a baby, but I really need my mom right now. Five, I can get things straightened out while I'm there; things like my GED and driver's license.

This isn't easy. It breaks my heart into a million pieces to have to do it but it has to be done.

I also will not have internet access during this time. Anyone who knows me, knows how to get in touch with me in NY. Please do so when I do go, (even you, Ikol). I really need everyone I can get.

So life... we meet again.

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 03:47:56 GMT

Well.
This sucks.

To be continued...

This Weekend's Project

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 18:57:34 GMT

FOR GNOMEREGAN!

http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=2647298339&sid=1

A spot of good news

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 18:01:52 GMT

So my mum called this morning and Nina woke up. She's pretty there mentally after almost a 3 month coma, but her motor skills are lacking, which is to be expected. However, she walked almost on her own and brushed her teeth the other morning.

:)

An unlocked post?

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 18:39:12 GMT

*ahem*
Meep.

Old... but I was reminded of it the other day.
http://www.qwantz.com/archive/000009.html

Yes, I am still alive. Sorta kinda.
Kind of sad that I'm not going up home to visit this month like I was supposed to. Just life here is too unstable financially and I want to be here since Samhain is actually a holiday for Jeremy.

So it's looking like I may go up in January instead for a month or so. My mum is getting surgery that they have to break both her feet for (seriously) and won't be able to walk for 3 weeks. I figure if I don't go up there now, I'll stay up there a while and help her recover and giver her company.
Also while I'm up there, I hope to sort some stuff out and take care of some unfinished business I've had since I left like I did.

If there be a Chandra or Jen reading this, any news on Megan? Last I heard they were going to get to keep their house but her dad was still not with them. What's been going on with that? Does anyone even know what happened to her? I really hate that I lost contact, especially when so much crap happened in her life... is there any way for me to get in touch with her?

Chandra, please tell me you're alright too. :(

In other news... not much more to tell.

Nina's husband was in her hospital room with her watching the game a little while ago. When their team scored, he swears he saw her smile a little.
Did she really or was it just what he wanted to see?
She's still sleeping after almost 4 months now.
It's so hard to think of the fact that I grew up at the same time as her daughter. I couldn't think of being 22 and suddenly never being able to have my mom talk back to me again. I sometimes wonder if it would be worse if she were just gone or if she is how she is... there but not going to wake up.

EDIT:
Ever get that creepy feeling like there's someone standing there behind you...?
http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g319/Kupo114/WoWScrnShot_102107_135941.jpg

Tears in my eyes...

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 10:25:49 GMT

http://fellowcraft.ytmnd.com/

...the fuck?

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 14:19:22 GMT

http://www.bestwavs.com/allwavs/news.asp

YOUR WEBSITE WAS A LISTING OF DOWNLOADABLE TELEVISION THEMES!

Remember kids, God frowns upon the Odd Couple theme.

CHANDRA! WHAR ARE JOOS?!

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 17:57:36 GMT

I really haven't heard from you in forever and I'm getting pretty worried. I don't know how to contact you, especially since the MidLand forums are gone, and I don't know if you even read this anymore. If you do... adhf;aojdhf;adjf

Look what I found...

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 23:16:34 GMT

Yes, I've filled this meme out before, but I find it fun to do these again every so often... just to see how much you've changed in that time.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Harmony
2. Harmony Bunny
3. Hey, you!
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Kupo114 (the best!!)
2. Kupo523
3. Mutantx51
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My height
2. My quirkiness
3. My fashion sense
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My height (sometimes it's a pain, aliright?)
2. My big-bonedness
3. My belly (I can get the rest of my body toned and in shape but my belly won't listen!)
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Mohawk
2. Tuscarora
3. Scottish
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. BOBBY
2. being alone
3. and getting yelled at (yeah I had to keep Jen's answers ^_^)
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Video Games (Sleep is for the weak, Jen!)
2. something to draw on
3. Yummy food!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. my green t-shirt form the movie I was in ("Enter the Dagon", no I didn't forget the 'r', that's how it's spelled)
2. my pink converse hightops
3. my Hello Kitty socks
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Garbage
2. Our Lady Peace
3. Jackdaw
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. 1,000 Oceans by Tori Amos
2. Pig-tail Man by Jackdaw
3. Ringfinger by NIN
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Being able to drive
2. Getting a stable boyfriend
3. Sky Diving
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. A great shared sense of humor
2. patience
3. A guy that will wrap his arms around me and just hold me there
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I have a very loyal and good natured heart
2. I love to help people with their problems, but no one confides in me >.<
3. I don't lie, hehe
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Hair, gotta have nice hair
2. A great sense of humor
3. Someone who laughs at all my lame jokes is a must, too ^_^
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Hurt an animal
2. Roll my tongue
3. Ask out people that I'm interested in
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing
2. Video Games
3. Writing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. I dunno, be warmer?
2. Watch Anime
3. Meet Dio
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Video Game Designer
2. Zoo Keeper ^_^
3. Freelance Artist (who knew me and Jen thought so alike . . . the possibilities are scary)
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. Mexico
3. China
THREE KID'S NAMES
1. Emily
2. Rose
3. Alexander
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Never eat meat again (been doing good for 5 years now!)
2. finish college
3. Above all else, be happy
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY MAHAHAHAHA MAHAHAHAHA
1. Peter Mark
2. Abby
3. I dunno . . . muffins?

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Harmony
2. Harm
3. Izzie
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Kupo114
2. Kupo115
3. Patient 602
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes
2. My quirkiness
3. My calm
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My height
2. My big-bonedness
3. My procrastination
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Mohawk
2. Tuscarora
3. Scottish
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Losing Jeremy
2. Getting yelled at
3. Being alone
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. A hug
2. Games
3. I suppose... food?
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Blue stripey PJs
2. Red Confucius T-shirt
3. Nail polish?
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Garbage
2. Jackdaw
3. Olivia Lufkin
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Tell Me Where It Hurts - Garbage
2. Winter Sleep - Olivia Lufkin
3. Black Market - BSG Season 2 OST
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Moving back closer to home
2. Staying happy!
3. Getting a job
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. A great shared sense of humor
2. patience
3.To feel as if I am the most important person in their world
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I have a very loyal and good natured heart
2. I love to help people with their problems, though am I often leaned upon too much.
3. I don't lie
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Smile
2. Someone who humors me
3. Yep, hair's still up there
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Hurt an animal
2. Roll my tongue
3. Stay happy, hehe
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing
2. RPing
3. Games
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. See Jeremy smile
2. Smile myself!
3. Stay up all night
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Video Game Designer
2. Writer
3. Whatever people will give me money for. :p
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. Canada
3. China
THREE KID'S NAMES
1. Emily
2. Rose
3. Alexander
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Never eat meat again (been doing good for 8 years now!)
2. finish college
3. Above all else, be happy
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY MAHAHAHAHA MAHAHAHAHA
1. Jen!
2. Jer?
3. I dunno . . . muffins?

Hehe I think Jen should take it again too and put it next to her old results. So much has changed, but not as much as I thought!

DO NOT WANT

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 18:34:22 GMT

http://www.mgroves.com/images/do_not_want_star_wars.jpg

NANA was licensed by... by... FUCKING VIZ!!!111

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

*has flashbacks of the butchered treatment of Naruto*

Interesting...

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 21:51:13 GMT

The saddest news I have gotten in a while...

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 23:37:25 GMT

http://animesuki.com/series.php/793.html

My song of the day

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 16:47:42 GMT

The song of the day is...

Internal Bleeding Strawberry by Olivia Lufkin... since I'm cool and can't find it to download... it's here on my not-so-whored out MySpace page as my default song...

http://www.myspace.com/kupo114

I SEES A DOUG IN MAH SHATTRATH

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 04:02:48 GMT

Isildra says hello.

Wow, so here's a first...

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 15:50:40 GMT

So this morning, I'm waking up to hearing these sounds in my house, even though I'm the only one home. I try to move, and I'm completely paralyzed but my left eye, which I can only force open half way. These sounds and even sensations continue. One of them was the sound of Jeremy coming home, be he had just left for work a couple hours before. One of them was the feeling of fur on my arm like when my cats used to walk on me while I slept, but I own no cats now. The third was the voice. I knew it to be a disembodied voice and I was terrified, but I still couldn't move, no matter how hard I wanted to.
So I lay there... and I get to thinking that all of these things are a little odd to be happening all at once.
Jeremy coming home from work because he forgot something: plausible.
Jeremy bringing home a kitten: Not bloody likely at ALL, but plausible, I suppose.
The strange ghost voice: Considering my life up to this point, definitely plausible.
But all unlikely.

The more I started thinking that this was all pretty out there to be happening at once, though, the less I was hearing things, and the more I found I could move. By now, I could open my right eye, but I still couldn't see out of it, but it was a start. Eventually, I regained nearly full control of my body and the sounds stopped completely.
I turn my head to glance at my clock and realise it's 8:30am, about the time I naturally wake up. I sat up in bed, and was completely fine.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypnagogia
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

Hehe, the whole thing was a hallucination from me being sort-of awake, but not all at once. ^_^

Quiz from Jen

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 03:53:56 GMT

What Naruto Character Are You?

Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.

Where'd I go?

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 19:48:44 GMT

Well, just to let anyone know who might have been trying to contact me on AIM or over the phone the last few days, it's not you. I just get in funks sometimes where I hide from everyone for a few days, and it's really nothing anyone did or said. Just my crazy shining through. :D
A lot of you already know I do this, but I still feel the need to apologise to everyone for my ninja-poof-vanish behavior lately. Hopefully it will all be over soon. :)

This has been a public service announcement from Mognet.

And because...

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 19:24:45 GMT

Not really much like the video I posted before... but some nostalgia. This is what I grew up with every weekend of my life til I was about 16 or 17. D: Funny how at the time I was so bored of it and couldn't take it anymore, but now I kind of miss it... wonder if there are any pow wows going on around here...

Whee Smoke Dance!

More Smoke Dance... this one's kind of like an Indian "You Got Served"...

Update on "Dreams..."

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 18:50:31 GMT

Started going around YouTube looking for Ainu things and found a ton... and this video. The similarities between this and dances and songs I heard my whole life were so eerie it made the hairs on my arms stand up.

Dreams and connections (This is weird...)

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 18:16:54 GMT

Ever since I was a small child, whenever I see pictures of Japan, of the country-side, of the coast, of the cities (especially), I get this odd homesick feeling like I do when I look at pictures of south Florida, where I was born.
I have never been to Japan, nor do I descend from there in any way.

Yet, aside from the thing with the photos and the videos... I have dreams. For years, I've dreamed about a cold place on the coast. It's a very small town, with waves crashing up onto the rocky coast. Sometimes the town is there and sometimes it's just wilderness or a small village, but always the same place. The sky is usually gray and cold-looking, but sometimes it's sunny and warmer, some vegetation growing. In my dreams, I know this to be somewhere in Japan, and though this particular place doesn't quite feel like home, in the dream, I am always comfortable and happy to be there. It's familiar in so many ways, yet not... kind of like driving through Pennsylvania a million different times when I used to live in NY, but I never really stopped there ever.

What's funny is that I can draw a little picture and map of this place that I have never seen before... but when I try to look up photos of similar areas, I have no idea where to look.

UPDATE Mid-Entry:
So I stopped writing and got bored and wandered off to look for pictures of places that may be similar to my dream location. After doing a TON of research... the location that seems to best fit is... *drumroll*...

Shiraoi, Hokkaido.

Just where is this place? Well, Hokkaido, obviously. No, I've never heard of it either, but some of the pictures I found were eerily close to what I have been dreaming all these years. So I did more research, looking to see if this place was featured anywhere in anything I might have seen before, but I couldn't find anything.

http://dinets.travel.ru/japan2.htm

Already, I was a little creeped out that I actually found the place I had been dreaming of... then I read a little further down about the Ainu. Did a little more research about them and their possible connection to American Indian tribes and the Nivkhs and Mongols. Being half Indian myself and growing up in that culture... THE PLOT THICKENS. I had always heard of the Mongols and possibly others from Russia crossing the Bering Strait and populating North America way back when, but I hadn't heard of the Ainu til now.
Hehe, funny thing is, the clothes the women are wearing in those photos on that website are similar to the ones I see the girls wearing in the Princess Pageants we had on Tuscarora. A lot of traditional Japanese music reminds me of the songs and music I've heard growing up as well, which I always thought was odd.

I TOLD MY MOM SHE LOOKED LIKE A LITTLE JAPANESE WOMAN!
(Seriously, I told her if I took her with me to Tokyo, I'd lose her.)

Just wow...

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 02:23:33 GMT

How will you be suspended from LJ? by Anonymous LJ User
Username
Years on LJ
Snape
Hours left until your suspension	11
Your crime	Legolas/Gimli fic where Legolas is only 103.
Who reported you	catanya25
Your fate	You buy a tropical island and start a whole new country, where fandom can live at peace, unmolested by those who do not understand. Two months later, the entire population is killed in the TezuRyo - TezuFuji ship wars.